Monday, October 18, 2004
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(24 jan 05) today, i dunno.... just dunno.... on the way to either work or home, i just could not help by think of that photo... really... just now, i broke my promise once again.... once again.... y? last time, it all started with nicks, then followed by testimonial... then, now it is the picture... so now, when i am typing, i just wanna to ask myself... what will i see on fri? when i go into TP for the talk? will i see him? or will i see him and his gf, holding each other's hand... i dunno.... suddenly just dun know what to say, what to react.... plz.... pray hard to god, dun let me see this... even so... even if i see this, plz dun let me cry... plz....
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10/18/2004 02:17:00 PM
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Saturday, October 09, 2004
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i am still trying... trying hard to get below someone's marks... trying to talk to someone.... trying to settle the feelings... but should there really be a day that even he and his gf appears in front of me and that i have no reaction or feelings.. that would be the day that i no longer even treat him as someone close... at first i really thought that the day had come... all till i saw his friendster and msn nick.. wah say... really lorz.... if i say that my mood dun change after this ... then it will be a lie.... coz my mood will change... and should there really be a day in which that i can tell my friendz that even if he is dead or alive, it is no longer my business... that would be the day that i have treated him no longer as a friend.. dun be surprised that i will just forget that i ever know this person in life... those days mentioned have not come.. but .... when will it come? i dunno... and for once, i dun mind.... coz at least better than half half... saying that i dun like him but everytime he comes online.... and his nicks are those depressing ones... i will feel the fear... fear of losing this person.... and i also dun mind that the day would come as i treat him no longer a friend... coz it will be better.... better than always seeing his nicks to his dear and some feelings will come.... for once... i dun mind that day comes sooner.... b4 my o levels would be the best...
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10/09/2004 02:59:00 PM
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Thursday, October 07, 2004
:: an email that i have received from... ::
Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them. Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear. Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you. What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry? If love isn't a game, why are there so many players? Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget. You can only go as far as you push! Actions speak louder than words. The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else. Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff. Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it. A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have. Some people make the world special by just being in it. Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us.
When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.
True friendship never ends.
Friends are forever.
Good friends are like stars....you don't always see them, but you know they are always there. Don't frown, you never know who is falling in love with your smile. Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end.
Most people walk in and out of your life, but only friends leave footprints in your heart.
If u love something...let it go. If it comes back to you its yours.... If it doesn't then it never was.
A kiss is just a kiss until u find the one you love. A hug is just a hug>until its from the one ur thinking of. A dream is just a dream until u make it come tru. LOVE is just a word until its proven 2 u.
Send this on to everyone special in your life, even the people who really make you mad sometimes. Remember, every minute spent angry is sixty seconds of happiness wasted.
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10/07/2004 01:02:00 PM
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Tuesday, October 05, 2004
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i dunno why... but after so long, i still find that i miss him a bit.. in a sense.... coz today when i got back my results and it fall so far from my expected results.. the first thing that i would want to do is to sms him.. want to have his comfort.. but then... in the end, i did not call or sms him.... maybe half of me did not want to ba? anyway... maybe he is also too busy to care about me lehz... so in the end.... ya... did not sms or call him nor anyone... not even kor... just lie down at my desk and was crying,,, nice thing is that kelly did not comfort me or i am not surprised that i will cry harder... heart ache lehz... maths so poor...
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10/05/2004 01:32:00 PM
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